“Where would you like me to serve in your church, my Lord?” was one of the first questions I asked shortly after I was baptized.
Nothing else in the bulletin had caught my eye except these 2 words “Organist needed” when I flipped open the church bulletin for the first time that Sunday.
I questioned God if I was good enough to serve as an organist since I stopped playing the organ almost 16 years ago! And my instrument was an antique – super duper old model – vastly different from the organ in church. How would I be able to brush up my rusty skills and find a suitable organ for me to practise and prepare for mass?
Doubtful that I was the chosen one, I called up the contact person hoping to satisfy myself that I won’t fit the bill and let them turn me away. To my surprise, I was invited for an “audition” which I attended and I passed it. I was also warmly welcomed by the choir and was patiently guided through the mass sequence and was given time to learn to play for mass. Gradually, I was given the opportunity to play for a few parts of the mass and finally a few months later I was able to take on the full mass on my own.
As for the instrument, after a long internet search, God led me to Yamaha where I managed to purchase a display set that was exactly the same model as the one in church, at about 2/3 of the original price, and was allowed to pay for it by installments!
I knew I couldn’t find any more excuses to hide my musical gift and service from God.
It has been 6 years since I joined the choir as an organist and I’m grateful for this opportunity to be able to use my God-given gifts to serve in His church. It has been a humbling and spiritually enriching experience for me.
Indeed, many are called but few are chosen. You, too, have been called. But are you faithfully answering the call or are you still finding excuses to reject His call?
In His service,
Karen Teresa Tan
Organist, St Cecilia Choir